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The Sense of an Ending
I saw a copy of Julian Barnes’ The Sense of an Ending lying around at a friend’s house. Not having read anything by the author previously, I knew of the book only as last year’s Man Booker Prize winner. I borrowed it and read through it in two sessions over two days.
Told in first person by an aging narrator, The Sense of an Ending is a series of recollections and reflections of a life that seems, initially, unremarkably lived. The warmth of the novel comes from the familiarity with which its is events are portrayed—its narrator Tony Webster doesn’t come off like a diarist or a witness giving testimony, but rather like a close friend working through a lifetime of memories aloud.
Webster is affable and eloquent in the recounting, and Barnes’ skill is evident from the very first pages. It is exquisitely plotted and economical, allowing its loose structure and unhurried prose to beautifully evoke how we remember our lives: subjectively, and in fragments. Although he is well into his 60s, a disproportionate number of Tony’s strongest memories come from adolescence, centering around his friend Adrian Finn. Finn is one of those unknowables we feel we must know, more substantial than the rest of us, prompting us to wonder if we may be side characters in someone else’s story rather than the stars of our own.
Tony is an unreliable narrator, and he knows it, but not in the diabolical sense. He is an unreliable narrator in the way we are all unreliable when it comes to telling our own stories. And as the story progresses, an event is revealed—first in general terms, and later in crushing, painful detail—that explains why he is second-guessing his own assumptions about his life.
As painful personal episodes in our lives recede into the past, we often make ourselves out to be less at fault than perhaps we were. As we recount those tales to our friends and family we become, more and more, not just the central character but a protagonist, deservedly relatable and sympathetic.
This is almost certainly for the best. We all have things we wish we could take back, and the malleable nature of memory allows us to, for the most part, continue on with our lives nonetheless. But sometimes there is hard evidence of such mistakes that unlike human memory is not subject to this gentle erosion, and we cannot help but confront it regularly.
At one point, Tony asks, “What if you can prove you weren’t the bad guy she took you for, and she is willing to accept your proof?”
God, if only.
We are egocentric by nature, and often see others as mere characters, not as fully-fleshed humans with interior lives as full and complex as our own. Just look at political coverage or internet arguments. Even many of those we love or respect can be reduced to a set of inherently limiting characteristics and memories.
A great novel reveals something about what it is to be human, and bolsters our capacity for empathy. The Sense of an Ending reminds us how stubborn our preconceptions of others can be, about miscommunication by way of misjudgment of character, and about the painful, lasting regret that can be borne of a leap to conclusions.